Altruistic Wish December 27, 2009

Besides all the commercialism, and my longing for those Supra shoes, i have this strong altruistic wish this Christmas. It’s been nagging at me for quite sometime that every time i went to Church (Christmas Eve, because i didn’t want to attend it with the maddening crowd, and this Saturday, for the Sunday vigil), i prayed for this super special intention: That the anti-homosexuality bill in Uganda won’t get passed.

Source:http://www.boxturtlebulletin.com/btb/wp-content/uploads/2009/04/redpepperretouched.png

I can’t help but agree with the motions set by Christians against this law as well.

Besides the religious reason of LOVING OUR NEIGHBOURS, and of Uganda being part of the COMMONWEALTH, we MAKE NOISE and try to STOP this law from passing because:

1. Living in a state of insecurity is detrimental to the growth, development, unity, and solidarity of a nation.
2. Spending resources on propagating hate and violence would lead to a major waste. Resources (time, people power, money, etc.) could be better spent on building infrastructure and other forms of social services.
3. Moving backwards in terms of freedom of expression starting with one’s sexual orientation might be the first step in a series of successively destructive laws that would reduce human dignity, freedom, security, and respect.

Anyway, let’s start moving forward and spread the love. Make SOME NOISE and SPREAD THE LOVE!

Supra Shoes + Randomness December 27, 2009

Ok, i have been really shallow lately. I have been lusting after Supra Shoes. For some strange reason, i want this pair…

Besides shoe-lusting, i can’t seem to sleep. I’ve been awake up until freakin’ 7 am. I think i should take a little nap then go about packing.

Shooters… it’s finally sinking-in…. I am leaving Toronto soon.

Childhood Innocence December 9, 2009

I wish that i was a child again…

Innocent… open-minded… absorbent like a sponge (my brain, that is!)… Hoohum..

Yes, that is my baby picture spewed over my notes.

Of Being Busy December 2, 2009

Read something from one of my readings in my Sociology of Gender (SOC 603) textbook:

Acker, J. (2008). Hierarchies, Jobs, Bodies: A Theory of Gendered Organizations. In Kimmel, M, Aronson, A. and Kaler, A. (Eds.) The Gendered Society Reader: Canadian Edition (pp 240-272). Ontario: Oxford.

“The history of modern organizations includes, among other processes, the suppression of sexuality in the interests of organization and the conceptual inclusion of the body as a concrete living whole.”

Maybe this is why i am killing myself with work, being professional, and just basically working my bum off time and again. Sometimes, i think that i believe in…

“The abstract, bodiless worker, who occupies the abstract, gender-neutral job has no sexuality, no emotions, and does not procreate.”

I am a subject to helping the formation of the “underlying gender relations” in the workforce.

Maybe i’m too inclined to following the masculine dominated workforce… or the gender-neutral workforce because i was brought up that way. Geeeez…

*ouch, my brain hurts!*

Current Addiction December 2, 2009

I’m currently sucked into the Kpop world because of something stupid… something really shallow… a jailbait with the initials of A.L. Geez! Seriously!

Here’s a photo of the eye candy.

Alright, so i guess it’s the funky hair, the swagger, and the cutesy dance moves that reeled me in… poor fish that i am… Oh well.

Happiness :) November 24, 2009

Couple of things made me happy:

1. Working-out. Feeling the endorphins surge through my system.

2. Getting that job that i was anxious about.

3. Finishing all school-related projects for this entire semester!

*picture not my actual project*

Just feeling soo dang HAPPY!

Anxiousness + Water November 21, 2009

Currently, i’m feeling anxious. About what?

1. School/groupwork. I don’t even know how to make visio work and i haven’t fully read certain manuals to know what i’m supposed to transcribe. Did i mention that my part is due in 24 hours?

2. Work. Unfortunately, i am still unemployed, and i have no idea if i am going to be employed at all this coming winter semester.

I just read somewhere that i shouldn’t be anxious… that i should leave everything to God through prayer. I think that’s something good to do indeed… I’m going to let Him carry the cross for a bit as i do my best in the little things for now. What can i do, right? I can only do my best and i can’t really control much about the job that i’m eyeing.

I shall start working on my project though… after i eat lunch. *grrrrumbling tummy*

On another note, i’ve been quite addicted to swimming. I like the feeling of being in the water. Maybe it’s my aquarius nature looming in? Who knows? Either way, i’m just glad to have swam for 3 days straight. Yesterday, i showered and my hair feels dry and brittle from all the chlorine. Seriously, i must find my swimming cap. After moving though, i have no idea where it went.

Can’t wait to go swimming again… maybe tomorrow afternoon, or on Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday… hopefully, i don’t get my period anytime soon!

P.S. This screenshot is courtesy of my friend, J.V. Muchos gracias if she happens to pass by my blog.

Room Smells Like… November 18, 2009

I can’t concentrate… because my room just smells like… SMOKED FISH… which is something that we had for dinner.

Wishful Thinking November 17, 2009

I’m keeping my fingers-crossed on this job opportunity that would enable me to move out and live in a totally different province.

Being raised in an Asian country where family ties are quite strong made my parents quite hesitant in making my siblings and i move away from home. They are quite adamant in keeping their only daughter, moi, home until i get married, that is IF i even get married to whoever they think i should get married to (insert gender-appropriate expectations).

Getting this job would:

• enable me to spread my wings and learn how to live/grow/and be a bit more independent without mom and dad hovering over my shoulder
• utilize the skills i’ve learned on campus, as it’s a co-op position
• enable me to test how adaptable i really am (immigrant family from an immigrant background… hmm… don’t know if that would fly… what do you think?)
• make me sorely miss Toronto (that’s for sure! ) and the people therein (friends… … and yes, my family too… )

I just wish i get that job though…

Current status: Still waiting…

P.S. The picture is a random shot.

Coming Out November 17, 2009

I inadvertently came-out to someone who i thought was open to having friends who are part of the LGBT community. WRONG MOVE!

What happened: I was removed from the person’s friends list.

No biggie, right? Well, in a way, this little incident sort of scared me. If the person can do something as trivial as that, what could happen between our mutual friends? What if she starts disclosing this to other mutual acquaintances?

Then again, if they can’t handle the truth… or if they think that they’re too good for me… whatever. Seriously, they’re not really my close close friends. I guess i just got a bit surprised by the downright quick sudden change personal climate between the messages.

Live and let live… geeeez.